So I've recently been getting tons of emails for stupid shit I never signed up for. Obviously some stupid human thinks its funny to just take a persons email and start signing them up for stupid shit without their consent.

Who ever is doing this best have a good lawyer, since I could report them for falsifying internet documents and have them arrested.

Stupid humans, I hope you all burn in the fires of hell for your idiocy and manipulative greed.

Oh my gawd...guys...I'm two months away from turning 19 years old...I'm getting old!! I can feel the adulthood creeping up on me!! It wants my soul!! Yea right, my soul is black as the void. Anyways, this sucks. Don't get me wrong, I love a good birthday. Its just I won't be able to spend it with my beloved fiancee by my side. Man I really miss her. Every day I lay in bed staring at the picture of her and I on my nightstand, I can't help but think and dream about her. People often say you should wait for love, at least until you get a bit older. This is not the case with me. When I first saw my mate years ago, I had a feeling something great would happen with me and her. I was wrong. Nothing great happened, but something absolutely amazing occured. I fell in love with a goddess, and she fell in love with me. I remember the day me and her first got together...she looked so beautiful...and this upcoming Sept. 7th will be marked as our one year anniversary. I really wish I could be next to her to celebrate it too. Each time I think of this upcoming anniversary I shed tears of sadness and joy, because I know I'm celebrating alone, but at least I'm celebrating a year long love I've had with the most wonderful woman ever. I know I say this just about every day and its probably lost some of its sentimental luster but, I love you Ravencroft! I always will no matter what happens.

I remember how I was back before me and dated. I was a complete E-Whore looking for love all over the web. I hid behind a false smile every day of my life, and swore to myself that because I felt like such a failure, I would commit suicide on my 18th birthday. I flunked most of my high school because I felt like a worthless retard with no purpose in existence. Then Ravencroft came into my life, and now that I look back on it, I think to myself of how much of an idiot I really was. I feel like a fool for just giving up, but now I know its time for me to make things right, for my beloved mate. I'm counting down the days till this year of school ends, and look forward to spending my entire future by my mates side. Never have I met a woman more loyal to me than her. Even at my worst she stands by my side, and I stand by hers. Soon my dearest Ravencroft, I will be by your side physically once more. I will do all I can to help support and care for you. Because nothing in this world matters more to me than you. Tenzuka would also like to let his Ravencroft know just how much he loves and appreciates her. If I ever get enough money I'll send you something really nice! Something you can use where ever you go, something really really special. -goes to his thinking corner-

I have faith in the future ahead, and so I say to everyone reading this, "Give up not a hearts desire, or a hopes dream, lest you give up life itself." -Tenzuka Dishuno Kitashi

So I found out a Grampa Tony's was opening nearby and they wanted a fresh batch of workers, so I went and applied. They said if they wanted me, they would call and let me know next week. It's up in the air still if I'm getting this job, but I'm confident I'll be hired.

Now for everyone's favorite...the bad news. Now over the past few years I've had to endure a series of chronic back pains. The more frequent they were, the less painful. Now they seem to pop up only on a few occasions. For some reason when they pop up (as fairly rare as they are) they hurt like crazy. Today though was a bit different. I'm glad I was sitting down because the pain that went through my back blew straight on through around my waist and had I been standing I'd have fallen over gasping for air and groaning (as I usually do). But luckily I was sitting, so when the first feelings of immense pain struck, I lied down on my back and relaxed my body, lessening the pain a fair amount. So HA back pain! I countered your attack! Oh well...probably hit back harder when I least expect it. Maybe one of these days I'll actually get the nerve to go see a doctor about my back (as long as a syringe isn't involved...I FUCKING HATE NEEDLES...).

Also my dearest beloved fiancee sent me a card in the mail, which I recently got. It had 5 dollars and poems in it. It was even put in a very decorative envelope. When I first opened this card ladies and gentlemen I actually almost felt like crying. Just to get something so simple as this can really mean a lot when your feeling lonely and hopeless. I feel as though I'm the absolute luckiest guy in the world to have in my life. Sometimes I'll even lie in my bed at night wondering if I'm even worthy of dating someone like her. School is coming up soon, and if I want to get a decent job when I move out to Wyoming, I gotta graduate this year. I've fucked my life up to many times, now failure is not an option. Although sadly I do have a high sense of Bushido, so if I don't graduate I may find myself unworthy and commit seppuku...But hopefully it won't come down to that! because then I'd probably feel like an even bigger dumb shit for leaving my beloved Raven as a widow.

High school better be ready to hand over my fucking diploma, because this years gonna be do or die.

In the great words of the Mountain King: "LETS GET PISSED!!!"